We FiGhT tO LiVe, wE lIvE tO fIgHt ^_~

new software and today's event

Sun, 20 Jul 2008 16:21:04 GMT

i admit that i totally don't know how to use adobe photoshop. oh, don't say i didn't try, because i did.....i DID, but it only cause my brain to explode! XO

it's weird actually, but that's the fact. so, instead of forcing myself to understand that photoshop thingies, i settled for a new software that i just installed= Corel Painter X. ~~feel the magnificent vibes!!~~

ohohoho, and i'm able to say that i CAN USE it!! muahahaha!! \(^o^)/
yea, so i went on and pick any one of my pic that i drew before and used it as a target for my new experiment. ~~snicker~~

and WA-LAH! a coloured version of mrs' kuga~

honestly, Corel Painter is sooo much easier to use than Adobe Photoshop in my opinion....
but then again, i say that because i'm the only one who don't know how to use the great Adobe Photoshop..... pity me, huuu.

oh well, on the side note......

got English report to finished today 'cause it need to be send tomorrow whether i like it or not. tsk! typical. but since the report is about the new product that my group just presented before, it means all 4 of us need to do it TOGETHER.... and so we decided to meet up somewhere at the beach -since the public library closed today-..... but guessed what? only ME and my other friend, Shid showed up! where's the other TWO!?? ~~GOD, i felt like choking them if i ever see them at that moment!!~~ >.<

but hell, whatever. so, me and Shid have to do the whole report ourselves.... well, it's more like i'm the one thinking and Shid? she was only writing whatever came out from my mouth, duh. nah, not that hard, but i was rightfully disapointed.... i was thinking about 4 of us hang out together..... at the beach..... having fun once in a while since we were soooo busy lately to have this chance.... huh, yea right.

well, at least after we both done that painful report, we went for a stroll together alongside the coastal, taking in the fresh air while small chit-chatting about this and that. dull, but worth it i guess.

i guess that wrap out today's event. hmmm, i even have a chat with my elder sister which way too far from me right now right after i returned home from the beach. that's that, i think. awright, i'm sleepy, time for bed.....

NanoFate forever!! XD

Sun, 13 Jul 2008 16:30:31 GMT

huh, well, yea...... these 2 pics have been lurking around here waaayy too long without being exposed to the world, so i thought it'd be best if i do it like NOW or never, heh.

honestly, i had put all of my heart on drawing and making these two look perfect. -sniff- dont know why, but i'm feeling nostalgic. well, NanoFate is another pairing that i love soooo much! <333 maybe next time i'll make them both together on ONE page instead. -giggles- who knows, i might as well. >=]

yea, been thinking about colouring them...... but meh, i'm way too busy lately. -__-

tHe EveR GrAcEfuL Fate~ <3

tHe EveR GraCiOus NanoHa~ <3

Shocked and disapointed

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 06:16:57 GMT

yea, as the title says, i'm completely shocked and awfully disapointed. i'm badly disapointed that i wish i could just die.... it hurts, it hurts so much to feel like this i'm in pain! i'm suffocating that it hurts so badly!
what did i do wrong?! what's not enough from me?! why can't i be the one?!! why is it not me?!! i was the one who so eager to do it! i'm the one who struggle so hard to make the possibility happened! and i even tried to make it perfect and smooth! i'm also the one who tried to make things work and succesful! and then why? why can't i??!!
please.... i'm so tired of waiting.... sick of being hurt everytime my expectation comes to none...... i keep on hoping, that maybe someday.....maybe.... *sigh*
life is so hard at times....
i don't want to give up on my hope, but yet... this is eating me alive!

Natsuki VS Rei

Sun, 18 May 2008 23:27:24 GMT

been a while since i last checked my LJ..... don't know why, but i'm starting to feel sick and tired with my normal life... oh, dang, this is dangerous. i even getting less and less on playing outside, instead i've been staying in my room almost straight from when i wake up to when i sleep back. this is NOT HEALTHY. oh yea, it's not. i'm used to be an active girl, so i need to get out! can't just stay here doing nothing! yea!!!
pfff, whatever~

well, here i draw a pic of Natsuki Kuga and Rei Hino. why Hino but not Shizuru, i heard? haha, you see, i didn't just draw this with nothing in mind like i normally do.... instead i produce this pic because of my opinions on how Hino and Kuga almost seems the same! not physically i mean.... it's more to the....err.... it's like.... they're like.... ARGH!! i dunno how to explain it! you might not agree with me, but this is my own opinions. well, i have doubts, but you'll get the point. -__-;

think about it. if we look at Kuga and Hino family's issues, both of their mothers were dead when Natsu and Rei were still young! and to ad things up, both of them are not quite fond of their fathers.... though on Natsuki's part, i just got some impressions of that, haha. but yea, their relationship with their respective fathers are far from sweet.... XO

then, there is their cool demeanour of theirs. *sigh* both of them are sort of portrayed to be cold, lonewolf type, involuntaryly famous, harsh, and they are selfish? haha, but we all know that's just on the outside, where on the inside both of them are actually kind and nice and all. oh! i'm actually talking about Rei Hino from the manga and PGSM, not from the anime, mind you. however, Rei is more open compared to Natsuki, huh? can't blame her though since Rei got her friends with her, but Natsuki only have Shizuru. =3

aha, and don't forget about their hot-tempered attitude. snapping every now and then, even to their significant others *coughcough*. okay, i really love ShizNat and ReiMina pairs.... and so from here, we can see another similarities of those two which is the popularity of the person they are paired to. see, Minako is a famous idol in PGSM, and Shizuru is the student council president who e ven have a lot of fan-girls! huhu....

well, i guess that's about enough ramble... oh yea, this pic is my first atempt in colouring pictures using computer..... it was kind of hard, no doubt! but since i'm a diligent girl *coughliarcough* i'm able to finished it, yaaaaay!! ^_-

Mrs & Mrs Kuga

Mon, 10 Mar 2008 04:43:56 GMT

uwah, it had been such a long time since i last update my journal! XO
my recently hectic life has made it so impossible for me to even relax!! i was busy here and there, now and then! and i was exhausted! huhuuu~ T^T
i hate the early months of the year where my life haven't fully settled yet....

-sigh- and that's that, i guess. it's not like i can do anything about it.....
awright! enough of my rambling! and so i present you another drawing of mine, a pic based on ManiazAzn's fic!
it's a Mai Hime version of Mr & Mrs Smith. =3

Mrs & Mrs Kuga~

friends-only and my sister's drawing ^^

Fri, 14 Dec 2007 15:46:34 GMT

well, like the title said, i decided to lock some of my pages to friends-only sooner or later. i think it's acceptable if someone wants to protect their drawings, right? and so i thought. then, i'll be locking some of my drawings which i think is better to hide it from people who aren't my friends since i don't know them. in other words, if you're not my friends, you can't see them.... but if you want to see it, then don't hesitate to be my friends, m-kay?

mmm, my sister is having a break from her studies recently and she's staying at home for a month. no need to say that i'm really happy for that since it's quite obvious awready. and so, while she's here, i decided to drag her into drawing some shiznat! ^^ well, she's quite a beginner in this drawing stuff, but she's a natural copy-cat if she's really into it. and the pic below is the product of her hard work! XD though at first there was a lot of..... err, mistakes she make, but after i teach her certain things, she finally able to make such a satisfying fanart~ (~o~) i'm so proud of her.....

i've been tagged!

Sat, 10 Nov 2007 06:45:57 GMT

i'm not actually very fond of this stuff..... well, 'cause it's hard! but hey, it might be fun anyway~
err, i'm tagged by centauri_2002, so i'm doing this for her. =3

8 random facts about meself:

1. i despise dress.... duh!
2. i have soft spot for animals- i bet everyone have though =p
3. i reeaalllly love to flirt.... a lot! my gurl are so gonna dump me~
4. i'm short-tempered, but surprisingly gentle. (that's what she said *shrug*)
5. my face always betray my feelings.
6. i have a pet called 'Hunter'. erm, she's a mouse. ^^
7. my personality changes when i'm with different person.
8. i'm very much in love with good drawings and stories.

uh, since i don't know that much people yet, i guess i won't tag anyone.

i'm tired... and anxious sigh

Tue, 30 Oct 2007 04:57:55 GMT

hmmm, i've been sleeping later than my bedtime for a month awready and it's starting to take its toll on my body. (~_~) the time for me to wake up had also became later and later each days... sometimes, i found myself awoke at early evening~~ i'm really, really damn exausted.... well, i suppose i better stop my stupid behaviour before it got seriously bad. *shrug*

heh. to make things worse, i can't help but to feel anxious lately.... don't know why though, i'm still searching the cause of it. O_o perhaps it's because the oncoming class trip of mine.... or is it because of my sister..? nah, forget it.... my head is going to blow with all of this~

last but not least, i think i'll put some more shiznat here... ^^
i'm thinking about making a doujin... but dunno, i'm still tired. but the idea is refreshing nonetheless.

natsuki kruger XDXDXD

Thu, 11 Oct 2007 11:14:13 GMT

well, my so-call-final-exam (damnit) had just ended days ago.....finally, phew!
so i thought maybe i will celebrate it with some drawing....and wa-lah! a Natsuki Kruger appear by my hand! XDXDXD
i drew her in a casual clothes though, but still......i made it!!! yay, i'm so happy~

natsuki x shizuru doujin

Mon, 10 Sep 2007 13:58:26 GMT

just something i drew to ease my mind from the upcoming so-called-final-test-of mine. though i might continue it......who knows, ne?

besides, these two are my favourite couple!! huhu~

my final exam this year!!!!!

Thu, 06 Sep 2007 15:38:21 GMT

oh, fuck! just when i thought there will be no more exam, another one shows up......actually, i already knew that there'll be one more final exam for me in this year.....but i kind of.......forget. gah! who am i fucking kidding??!! i didn't actually forgot about it! i just pretend that i forgot!!! for humanity's sake!!!

huhu......i've had enough awready~ make all the exams go away,pleeease!! i don't wanna touch anymore books again.....because the books are evil! they tried to make my head explode with all the information they contained!! curses, i tell you! cuuuuurseeessss!!!

well, despite all the stupid things i just mention, i wanted to thank my guitar for keeping my mood stable, all the drawing materials for keeping my sanity, and my family for keeping me alive.
..........................................what am i bluffing here.......???
oh, don't answer that...

i'm back!

Sat, 25 Aug 2007 15:13:52 GMT

i'm exhausted......hell, going back from my hometown to where i'm leaving now by car take 8 hours!and to make things worse, i leave at 8pm and above.....which means i arrived at home at 5 or 6 am something! i was tired and deadly sleepy! huhuu.... (~_~)

well, that was yesterday. and unfortunately the effect is still on me right now.....eh?what the hell????
bah! what's done is done, and i'm actually quite happy that i'd able to visit my grandparents the past few days.hehe...

oh, i forgot to mention before......the reason why i went there in the first place was because of my grandfather. he got himself into an accident that caused his right leg to break...ouch, never want that in my life~ he just went through a surgery when i visited him, and he looked awful......he's in pain, i can tell......and it strucked me. he usually cheerful when i visited, but at that time......he looked beaten.....i was sad seeing him like that.....

well, what can i say.....life's not easy. you have to be strong to face it. and that was the bad news. on the other hand, which is a good news is that i able to meet all of my cousins! but not all actually. it was fun since i havent meet them long enough because i'm busy. we talked, played, and even made jokes. yea, it was quite a memory. oh! i even bought a new handphone that's cool enough! it got all the function that i need. i'm veeeery satisfied to spend my money on it.

wait, wait! there's more.....i bought a new pet!!!it's a mickey mouse! it's small and soooooo cute! and i named it 'Hunter'. (><) don't laugh! i think that name suits it. hmph! erm, it's a she and her body is all white.hehee. though her eyes are red rather than black.well, that's make her more charming. *gasp* my gurlfriend are so gonna call me crazy.......and she's afraid of mouse too...or not??? hmmm....now there's a plan, i could surprise her with Hunter. who knows, those two might like each other....my gurlfriend and my pet.huhu.

me eyes!!!! gotta......sleep.mmm.....freaking....tired......b-b-bye~

went out for 7 hours with mum!!! (O.o)

Sun, 19 Aug 2007 15:20:29 GMT

Huh, my sister going away to study again.....leaving me all alone again,not fair though since we're the bestest friends ever! tsk,curses~

well, she's leaving today......and me and mum went along to send her at the bus......sad, but then again i'm alredy used to it.duh! the only problem is that me and mum are not in the best term that time.pff! i was like soooo irritated with her.....but hey, she's my mum!

we went out in the morning around 9am sumthin'. my mum had just annoyed me yet again before we left home, but when we're in the car [and when i scowled too much] she was actually trying to talk with me again.ha?what's with that? well, not like i put any heed at all to her, i just listen matter-of-factly anyway.

and when we [me,sis and mum of course] were walking towards the bus station, guess what she did? wah! she suddenly walked side by side with me and hold my hand!!! gah, and boy that was soooo embarrassing! but i just act like i dont care though, and my sis actually laught at me! tsk!typical.....my mum wouldnt let go of my hand till i started to soft up again.......man,what a spoiler...

then, there a sad, melodramatic air around me and sis as she was about to go.........(~~)  huhu.......
well, we'll skip that part,okay.

hmmm.....and after that i followed my mum went around the city to finish her bussiness [whatever that is]. erm, we went to buy some things, visit some of our friends.......and.........hmmm.....back home i guess......we've been out for about 7 hours! i was practically exhausted when we're back home.so, i got changed and fell asleep......obviously. haha. i woke up later around dinner time.....what can i say,i'm a lazy person....

then, here i am.....and that's that..so,buh-bye.
oh yea, i'm going back to my hometown for 5 days starting tomorrow. i dunno if there's any internet connection there, so i might not able to keep in touch for a while.

my life's >SuCkS!!

Sat, 18 Aug 2007 06:45:23 GMT

it's fucking annoying! i dunno what to think anymore! sometimes family are sooooooo.........

i just got back from school....supposed to be holiday, but they're so fucking made an extra class! what the.....i'm going to take an exam, so why in the world would they want to take my precious time to study away from me!
sheeessshhh.....for humanity's sake!

gah! and just when i got home, those siblings of mine....pppfff
fortunately my parents are still nice and all like usual. i would gone crazy if they're also side with my siblings....really. urgh.......and i haven't eat since morning.....and my stupid stomach is rebelling against me.duh! [like that could happen].

man....aren't lives are hard?? not to mention my studies already been hard to me.....and the guitar learning things also...
but then again, that's what makes lives interesting,ne?
i guess i've just got to be strong....and move on....and on....and on......and on......feel free to stop me anytime you want....

bah,duty calling.....got to go..ja

my first entry.....\(~o~)/

Fri, 17 Aug 2007 09:07:28 GMT

i'm playing guitar.....duh.

before, i've been wanting to learn guitar soooooooo much!but unfortunately i don't know how or where to begin.i didn't even know who to turn to ask for help. but then i suddenly remember that i got internet!for humanity's sake,why i never think of that??

after that, i finally managed to find some web pages that can teach me fully on how to begin playing guitar and all.it was heavenly![to me of course]. and......jang-jang!i can play now!!!!woohooo~

but unfortunately,i need to practice frequently or i'm not gonna able to be a pro..........since the chords were quite hard! however, it didn't meant i'm going to give up,instead i will do my very best!watch me.hehe.....the only problem now is,i don't have enough time with all the exams thingies...huhu~

oh,yeah.....i also decided to post some of my drawings later, but i can't guarantee it....since i'm a very lazy person.yes,i admit it,so what?? my drawings not that good actually,i'm just an amateur.....but it's not bad either!i've been drawing for 5 years now....imagine that.

at the end, we'll see what happens next. till then,i guess.ja.